Do You Have Kids?

Saturday, February 8, 2014
I did something that I told myself I would never do. 
In a moment of panic,  I denied my daughter's existence.

I was at work and caught up in a conversation with a family.
When I was asked if I had any children, in an instant a word came out of my mouth.
I responded, "um, um, no."

Visions of my Addalyn flooded my head as a weight dropped on my chest. 
Instant guilt and pain set in. I didn't mean to deny her. 
I know she was, she is, and she will forever be my daughter.

When asked, I do not respond "yes" because of the questions that follow.
Boy or girl? What is her name? How old is she?
Those questions sting.

My usual response is, "I do not have any living children."
I have never been asked in response, "well how many deceased children do you have?"
It is a direct answer that does not need any explanation nor does it deny her life.

I was caught off guard, panicked, and instantly regretted my response.
I have one child and I am her very proud momma. 

To the moon and back.


Wednesday, February 5, 2014

Awe, it feels like I can breathe a little better. 

Sookie Jane received a little facelift because I craved less clutter and more simplicity in my life.  It went from this...

To a more simple and clean layout...

2014 is a year of mind, body, and spiritual healing for me.
It is a year of new beginnings and change.
And change started with an overhaul of Sookie Jane.
Check that off the to-do list!

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