Thursday, June 27, 2013
At 4:45, we gathered for family pictures on Emily's wedding day. 
As the photographer assembled my entire family, he casually said, "is this everyone?"
My heart sank. He simply wanted to insure that everyone that needed to be in the picture was present but Addalyn will forever be missing.

Missing, but never forgotten. 
Much to my surprise, Emily insured that Addalyn was with us.

Woven into Emily's bouquet was a charm with Addy's picture. 
I can't even begin to tell you how touched I was. 
As a grieving momma, it delights my heart so to see Addalyn being remembered. 

She was mentioned, she was talked about, and she was remember. 
 Her spirit was present and felt in the warmth of the sunshine on such a perfect day.

I am blessed with an amazing family and am so touched by their love for my daughter. 

Mr. and Mrs. Brinkmeyer

Sunday, June 23, 2013
Emily and Chad wed at Eventful at Locust Grove in Weston, MO 
in a beautiful outdoor ceremony.


And the pictures would not be complete without the beautiful bride and groom!
Welcome to the family Chadwick. 

Father's Day

Sunday, June 16, 2013
Nate had never really held a baby.
Babies made him nervous so he always preferred to let me hold while he watched.

For not really being a 'baby person,' Nate is an amazing daddy to our Addy.

He was a natural with Addy and it was pretty incredible to watch his love.


He wrapped her up in his arms. 
He read to her like it is something he has done many times before. 
And, he loves her with a love that I don't think he knew he was capable of. 


Happy first Father's Day Nate.
I know the emptiness and longing you are feeling today.
But through the pain, I hope you know that your role as a daddy 
will never be forgotten. 


There is no doubt that she knows your love.

12 Weeks

Tuesday, June 11, 2013
It is Tuesday.
I dislike Tuesdays.
 I might even go so far as to say that I hate Tuesdays.
Every Tuesday, I wake up to the realization that one more week has lapsed.
I find myself getting lost in the thoughts of what should be as a way to mask life as I currently know it.

Today, my precious Addalyn would be 12 weeks old.
This should have been her first week at daycare and my first week back at work. 
I should be shedding tears on my commute as I leave my precious little one with someone else for the very first time. Instead, I shed tears over what will never be.

What would her laugh sound like? 
Would she look more like Nate or more like me?
Would she be sleeping through the night or still waking every few hours?
 Would she...would she...would she...I will never know.

To the moon and back...forever.

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