On Friday, we met with the Fetal Health Team at CMH. The hubs and I had several difficult conversations leading up to this meeting and desperately tried to prepare our hearts for what we could possibly hear. It is heart wrenching to have to talk about death and dying when you are preparing to bring life into the world. It is never what you imagine when you think about getting pregnant, becoming parents, or having a baby.
There are no words to describe what it is like to prepare to go to a meeting to find out the fate of your unborn child. I made a list of questions and tried to ready myself for what would be. Despite what would be presented to us, it was and will continue to be the cry of my heart that Baby V knows just how loved she is.
The hubs, my mom, and I set at a large conference table with 3 doctors, a fetal health nurse, a genetics counselor, and a social worker and listened as they explained Baby V's anomalies. There were heavy words said...intubation, oscillation, ECMO, surgery, cognitive deficits, renal failure, hemodialysis, transplant, quality of life, and on and on and on. The prognosis is not good.
There will be may more difficult conversations to come as we try to process all that we were presented. Regardless of the road to be traveled, Baby V has a momma and a daddy who will love her forever. All we want is what is best for our precious daughter.
Aly and Nate we continue to pray for you and Baby V. I have also requested prayers on a number of prayer chains. Aly, everyone has commented on what a wonderful mother you are, not just will be, for Baby V. We can never fully understand Gods plans, but we always know that He does what is best. Baby V is already touching lives and I'm sure that God has a special plan for her.
ReplyDeleteHang in there! You have an army of prayer support behind you.
Kelly Enright