Dear Addy,
I know it sounds cliche to
say, but it seems impossible that an entire year has passed since the day you
were born. I have envisioned the moment that I would give birth to my first born
child long before you were in my womb. That moment when I first laid eyes on
you was more than I could have ever prepared myself for. You were simply
perfect…a true miracle indeed. Your head full of hair, your soft skin, your
round cheeks, your long fingers and toes, my nose and my chin, your oh so
special lip, and your perfect little eyes.
My greatest fear melted away and
I rejoiced in my answered prayer as I looked into those eyes. The stress of the pregnancy, the fear of the
reality, and the worry for that moment faded. I was given the opportunity to look you in the
eyes and tell you how much your momma loves you. Oh Addy, words will never be
enough to capture the depth of my love for you.
With the growth of my tummy,
with every kick, every wiggle, every twist and turn, with each time I rubbed my
belly or saw you on the screen, with every chat we had, every book we read, or
song I sang to you, our bond grew. But in that moment of your birth, I was
forever changed. A love that I have never experienced washed over me as you
laid upon my chest. As I felt your heart
beating against mine, I knew that nothing could ever take back that moment. You
existed.
Addalyn I want you to know
the impact that your life has had. You are remembered, not just by those who
have gathered to celebrate you, but by so many who never had the opportunity to
meet you. You are talked about, your pictures proudly displayed, and traditions
rearranged all to honor your memory. I feel your presence and your absence too
in a physical burn in my chest. I know that you are always with me. And you always will be until we are reunited
again.
Addy, you fulfilled a dream
of mine by making me a momma. From the day I found out I was pregnant, I simply
could not be more proud to be your momma. You have taught me the precious
nature of life, a depth of love I had never before experienced, and a new found
hope in forever until we meet again. What joy you have and always will bring to
my life.
With every day that passes, I
hope you know how deeply you are missed and how genuinely loved you are. And today, on your first birthday, I hope you
know how celebrated you are.
Happy first
birthday my little sunshine.
I love you to the moon and
back,
Your Momma
Happy Birthday Addy!!!!
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